I recall a few times speaking about my feelings around how it doesn't seem like you have a-lot of quality time to focus on Atlan due to understanding how busy you are in your life and also experiencing the way you would show up at times when we worked together - which left me feeling a sense of lacking a deeper sense of collaboration. It felt like business orientated much more in a 3D way of how most of society handles business as usual. Through experiencing this and knowing this is not the energy I wish to co-create in considering how intimate I considered this type of co-creation of living and working together, if felt very important to assess if this is aligned enough for me as I personally need to be creating in a foundation thats grounded in spiritual practice.
I do want to honor that you worked to accommodate my needs by committing to partaking in spiritual practice together which I was grateful for, however the other need I had which was to be able to collaborate in a more connected, co-creative way I feel was left disregarded and unmet. Instead I felt you leaned more towards the other way - and even begin to show up in our times to collaborate in a way that felt you ended up having even less patience or desire to work together. This showed up in an array of ways from your energy shifting towards me to other things I mention in other instances that emerged as I began re-collecting experiences. I can recall one of the last times I presenced this need you said something along the lines of “your sorry, your busy with you life and family and hope the time you do have to collaborate is sufficient enough. I expressed this was not sufficient enough for me to feel a deeper more solid sense of collaboration together.
I understand you were working on a-lot of things for Atlan on top of everything else you are tending to in your life, and when it came to our time to collaborate it felt as if you had very little presence and capacity to offer. However, as soon as I said I was resigning, you began to have much more time for everything. I also began to notice when I started recollecting moments, they led up to me believing that you didn’t want to take the time for deeper collaboration because there was a certain sense of flow and coherence you were building with La that you didn’t want interrupted, or make room for evolving some of the ways in which you have been doing things to establish a more integrated approach to our collaboration. This would have entailed you being able to let go of a certain sense of control and leadership as it was calling for us to pass the baton back and forth to one another - which I feel you were not open to as that is perhaps all you know, as your the caretaker for everyone in your life and run the show completely.
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